Why the hell am I so tired?

Okay, its like this. It seems that no matter how much sleep I get or the quality I always seem to be tired. Why is that? I know maybe I have a sleeping disorder or something. That was the first thing that came to my mind. My mother had sleep apnea when she was overweight (and lets face it I could stand to lose a couple of pounds). I don't have insurance so I can't really afford to go to a specialist to figure out what is wrong with me. All I know is that I don't like having to nap when Evangeline does or sleeping really late when Zach has a day off just so I can get up and then still be really tired. I really don't know what to do. I've tried over the counter sleeping aids (Tylenol pm) but those don't seem to help.

I've also tried getting on a nightly routine. You know, watch about an hour or so of T.V. and then take a hot bath to relax me so I can get to sleep some where around 10 but that doesn't seem to be helping at all. Maybe its because Eva still doesn't sleep completely through the night all the time. I mean she has gotten better (knock on wood) but she isn't completely ready to sleep through the night. All I know is that with me being so tired all the time, I'm lazier during the waking hours. I don't want to clean, or do laundry, or go outside (mostly cause its still too cold where I live and we live in a kind of scary neighborhood), or really do anything at all.

Maybe its that I sleep too much and my body is used to sleeping all the time. I don't know. Anyways, Eva is stuck in doors while I try to stay awake. Oh, and caffeine? Forget it. I can drink an entire 2-liter of Mt. Dew and still go to sleep. I'm running out of ideas. Maybe I will just have to suck it up and pay out the money to see my doctor. He will undoubtedly give me sleeping pills, but they won't help. My doctor is kind of a quack who doesn't do his job. Maybe he is as tired as I am all the time. God, I hope not! Anyways, I will try to get a good nights sleep and be more awake tomorrow. Maybe then I will have something more interesting to talk about.

Amanda